June 2005 - July 2006

After this period of time, I realized I learned alot and also know how everyone is like now. I think I dun wish to mention names in here as I believed you wont even bothered to care in the first place whether I do exist or not.

I treat everyone who treats me as a frien as frien. If you think that finding a frien is like finding a gf, then sry I really cant help u. I am neither pretty/beautiful/gorgeous nor maybe nice looking. I am fat and ugly. FINE with everyone out there? Muz everyone nowadays really need to look at looks b4 u can be friens. It doesn't always pay to be good.

Next, pls all, I am not ur ATM. Dun think tt I am very rich.. I myself haven even found a job and I see everyone turning to me for money.. kaoz.. When u all borrow.. u all can say how sweet things r.. but when come to returnin.. where have u all gone to. I am not rich tt u all can borrow and then keep on draggin it. I also have my limits. After lending you all, I dun have money, I have to cancel alot of on going events. Even my birthday, also muz call off if I really dun have enuff cash. Imagine how good I have treat u. Most of u are not my close friens or best friends, and I have done so far for wat a frien should do.. Dun u think tt I have overdo as a frien? Can you all kindly spare a tot for me? However, I do not forget those who have also lend me money when I needed and also pay for my expenses when I am really down in cash.

Sometimes I juz need a listening ears or maybe a companion to keep my ,mind occupied then to be alone. I am glad tt I do have friends who r straight forward. Can meet means can meet.. Dun keep telling me see first and dun reply.. And nx time dw the road, u come saying y i never call u along when there are outings or gatherings. You the 1st one who din wan to come meeting me in the 1st place, so pls do not come saying me not jioing u out. I am someone who do not like to call someone out after being rejected a few times. If you all wan, juz set a time and place for me to meet and I will go, but whether leaving early or not depends on the crowd.

I am quite upset recently as I feel that watever have been said has never been listened in and can repeat the same questions again and again. If I have said the thing already for so many times, y cant u juz rem and stop askin me the same thing. To get a thing done is it really tt difficult? How come I always hear ppl saying "I dunno", "see how", "not sure", "maybe", "see 1st", etc.. wat happens if i say to u or maybe the person who u calls out keep saying this to u.. how do you feel?

I am rather upset xia!~ My birthday is coming next month and out of 10 whom I ask, none of them say confirm they will come. Is it really so hard to ask u all out? Well, since it's not easy to celebrate my bdae, then I'll juz call it off. Giving ppl at least 3 weeks notice all tell me see how. See how = not going? or last min then tell me.. how am I supposed to organize if no one can cfm with me.

Maybe I should juz let go and not cling on to any matter.. if no one can wans to help me then i will help no one. Since all like to tell me see how 1st, then I will tell u all see how 1st nx time. No more priorities given to anyone special already. I will meet the person who fixed me the time and place first after comfirming the meeting. And well of coz... ppl.. if u any of my friens now wans to call me out, and if i am free and within budget constraint, I will come!~